Oh The Euphoria

So I'm sitting here at 3:37 am thinking I've officially lost my mind. Having a rough time dealing with pain due to RA, and Fibro, no relief in sight. It's Fall weather here in the Chicago area. Need to start heading for warmer climates in the cold months as my body can't take it. So anyway before any of you say that I shouldn't joke about losing my mind, I've been in mania phase of my bipolar disease for about a week now. Can't sleep at night at all, may take a quick cat nap during the day but that's it. Quite honestly I don't know how anyone is dealing with me I've become this raving bitch during the daytime hours. 

It's 6:00'pm now so I've now been awake about 40 hours straight. I think my brain maybe starting to wind down as I've been like this for about 5 days. It's interesting having euphoric mania as I've had so much energy, and, creativity, I'm not tired at all. The worse part is that having Fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid Arthritis my body is aching so bad, I need to try to rest. I go to my bed lay down, I'm now moving my feet around non stop, and my heart is racing like I just road a roller coaster.

I finally came down after drinking pots full of my chamomile tea, it felt so good to get some sleep. Truly I don't know how everyone dealt with my sharp tongue, being up all day and night. 

Oh boy, here come the tears!! It's now a few days after my crazy euphoric creative 40 hours, now I want everyone to leave me be so I can just be....

I have been medicated for years, there was a glitch in my insurance coverage so I had abruptly come off all my 17 meds for physical, and mental health. The hardest part for me was realizing that my bipolar disorder was very well controlled, it was very difficult for my adult children to accept my behaviors while not medicated. They had never experienced "me" off of my meds. 

At least I had the comfort of holistic therapies like grounding essential oils of cedar wood & frankincense. I also drank Yogi Blues Away Tea with St. John's Wort, it's very effective, and reasonably priced. I journaled everything so that I could get all the emotions out. Finally I settled down enough that I was able to add meditation back into my daily routine as well. 

Many of my clients do well on homeopathic therapy, herbal medicine, and other modalities. Most of all because I have lived with Bipolar Disorder both my husband, and myself, my clients can safely let everything out without judgment. It's so important to be able to have a wellness coach you can call to get you through rough times. After years of my husbands mania outbursts, and not being able to tell a healthcare professional without the judgements, and the comment of "well I have to report this to the police", and "you should call them". How are the police going to help a bipolar patient, great idea lock them up in general pop in un-medicated. Maybe they would spend the rest of their life there because of their behavior. Unfortunately everything doctors ever gave my husband as prescriptions made him have 3 times more outbursts, or the opposite side of the spectrum, sitting in a chair drooling on himself, and having seizures.

My main goal as a Mind, & Body Wellness Practitioner was to be able to help people who have no one to turn to. I use Guided Imagery Hypnosis, herbal remedies, flower essences , and wellness coaching for both the client and family. 

In conclusion I do take pharmaceuticals and many of us need them, and do well on them. I do use other holistic modalities on myself. I do encourage those that feel they have no where to turn to, schedule a wellness coaching session. I have started to create a mapping system for my clients with Bipolar Disorders and hope after a many months/ years of data it will help the clients and their families become aware of some of the triggers, which I believe as a family unit is very valuable.

As always don't take anything without discussing it with your doctor.